and when she'll get up, she won't find her wings !

And she thought she is safe somewhere. Of course then, she was an idiot. She'll either die or maybe she'll survive but will she be able to live now? Is life just measured by breathe count? I assume the nation will raise its voice again, protest marches, table banging in parliament but what if they'r tired, what if they have given up, given up to this way of living of waking everyday to a new morning news of another female fool who thought she could breathe freely in this country, then maybe the newspapers would start up a new column or a page called The Rapes Of India. Her cries of pain will eventually evaporate into nothing.

Right from the day she was born he was mightier, stronger and the one who has to carry the world forward and she was weaker, delicate, unsubstantial. If this is what has to happen then female foeticide would be better option. Its better not to let a plant shoot up and dream of touching the sky if it'll be slaughtered anyway.

Today it is not me writing this, it is every she speaking to you, every she who feels herself trapped in an unending tunnel with no ray of light at end, every she you talk of, every she you objectify, every she you try to grope in public transport, every she you whistle at in the corner of street, every she who tries to cover up herself but never is able to hide, every she whose eyes carries a fear of your eyes, every she who curses God for giving her this life, every she who had wings and every she you did not let fly.

My 'LyricsFavouriteSongs"- Part 2 !!

Hello everyone
I am back with yet another list of my lyrics favorite songs. Actually this is an endless list and somehow ranking these songs is something that I can never successfully do. There are so many songs worth mentioning that I would get tired but will not be able to end. I bring to you this set of another awesome lyrics !!

• Tujhse naraaz nahi zindagi- Maasoom

This track is a number that has been one of the most wonderful expression of pain and struggle in human life. An amazing saga by R D Burman sir and Gulzaar sir ! This is one of those songs that you can imagine playing in the background of your life almost everyday.

जीने के लिए सोचा ही नहीं दर्द सँभालने होंगे

मु स्कुराये तो मुस्कुराने के क़र्ज़ उतारने होंगे

मुस्कुराऊ कभी तो लगता है

जैसे होंठो पे क़र्ज़ रखा है

• Madno - Lamhaa

 I guess I shouldn't have mentioned this song because I cannot end appreciating it. Each and every line carries within it a wave of emotions and you are left in awe as to how did the lyricist manage to write such a beautiful thing. So many incredible writs tied up in one song brilliantly penned by Sayeed Qadri.

मैं हूँ शब् तू सुबह, दोनों जुड़ के जुदा

मैं हूँ लब तू दुआ, दोनों जुड़ के जुदा !!

 What come next is something I'll never be able to praise enough.

कई ख्वाब दिल तुझको लेकर सजाये

पर खौफ ये भी कहीं पर सताए 

गर ये भी टूटे तो फिर होगा क्या रे

मुझे रास आती हैं खुशियाँ कहाँ रे 

This is just too beautiful, so well scripted, with judicious use of the "anti words" and a soothing music. Though the song has been placed in a "sad" genre but for me its a source of happiness due to the unbelievably awesome lyrics .

• Tarkeebein- Band baaja baraat

Another well crafted song, the metaphors used in this song are so refreshing and different. Its a total our generation kind of song. Take for example

हम कल से कल निबटेंगे जो होगा देख लेंगे

हम टस से मस न होंगे जो होगा देख लेंगे 

ठन्डे पड़े जो हौंसले सेंक लेंगे

चढ़ते सूरज को छु कर सेंक लेंगे  

OR the best one

बचपन से ताना सुनते हैं मत समझो लाइफ इस इजी 

इतनी भी क्या है जल्दी थोडा सा टेक ईट इजी 

माना फ्यूचर से उम्मीदें  तो लगी हैं

क्यूँ ना जिए जो आज में ज़िन्दगी है 

टेंशन वेंशन क्या है बस माथे पे बल होते हैं

बेपरवाह मुस्कानों से ही मसले हल होते हैं

It carries bundles of optimism in it. Neither any difficult words, nor a deep meaning yet gives you a fabulous message, topped up by witty comparisons .Trust me this song is a secret to a tension free life. :P

• Phir se ud chala - Rockstar

My list cannot end without the mention of two magicians " A R Rehmaan" sir and "Mohit chauhan". This is a creation where both of them have waved their magic wands and let this wonderful creation come alive, Irshaad kaamil's lyrics too are in sync. A musical treat indeed. 

मिटटी जैसे सपने कितना भी पलकों से झाडो फिर आ जाते हैं

कितने सारे सपने क्या कहूं किस तरह मैंने छोड़े हैं तोड़े हैं 

The beauty of song lies in the way it brings to you the reality of human life.

किसी मंज़र पे मैं रुका नहीं

कभी खुद से भी मैं मिला नहीं 

ये गिला तो है मैं खफा नहीं 

In our busy lives where we are so focused on achieving the goals of life that we forget to stop and take a look at ourselves. And someday we realize that while we were busy climbing the stairs of success we left the real us somewhere below and then it would be hard to go down. So I'd want all of you to take some downtime for yourself everyday, this is your one life, enjoy it !

• Rehna tu- Delhi 6

Wound around the hook created by the very first line "रहना तू है जैसा तू थोडा सा दर्द तू थोडा सुकून ", the whole songs make you feel the essence of a world of selfless love where pain and gain does not exist. It is the mere presence of the beloved ones that matters. Sir A R Rehmaan's highly imaginative lines along with his own scintillating voice makes this song a must mention here. His sheer audacity with the words is commendable.

 थोडा सा रेशम तू हमदम थोडा सा खुरदुरा 

कभी दौड़ जाए या लड़ जाए या खुशबू से भरा

तुझे बदलना ना चहु रत्ती भर भी सनम

बिना सजावट मिलावट ना ज्यादा ना ही कम 

I end up today's list here. Enjoy these songs and do comment below about how you liked them. Also I'd love to know more of your favorite songs. Have a great day !!

Their names said it !

~~ हर आहट तेरे आने की दस्तक लगती रही

चाँद भी तेरे इंतज़ार में आसमान से चला गया~~

Staring through the window for past three hours, the glass started appearing hazy but the view across it remained the same. The street preceding her apartment , as busy as ever seemed deserted to her. Drinking a glass of water, she tried to explain herself every possible reason as to why couldn't  he show up.

" Maybe he has actually left and wont come, or maybe he is there on his way, stuck in heavy traffic, he loves surprising me, I must wait."

The flickering mind of a human and the hopelessly hopeful heart of a girl, she decided to call him once more but got the same recorded heart breaking answer.

"The number you are trying to reach is switched off. Please try again later. "

With a sinking heart she opened up her diary to a page that had a letter written by her almost a month ago and a photograph.

Dear  

Amber,

I have lived in this city for some three years but its only after you came here, I feel I belong to this place . I never believed that the sunset on Juhu beach was any different from what I saw from my terrace until one day you took me there, that day with the light getting dimmer I could see more and more into my own heart and believe .With my shadow coalescing right into yours  I wanted that moment to freeze there and then. You've made me learn to smile at every little thing around and now I do because you say that makes me look prettier. I used to hate surprises and you love astonishing me with your plans.. "plans of happiness" as you call them. I also used to hate planning and like every other birthday I had planned a lot nothing about how would I spend the day but right with zero hour you made me  celebrate it. That day looking at you I thought to myself about how much you make me happy, weather you know it or not. You gifted me this diary to write down everything that is somewhere inside me because I don't speak a lot. I have written a lot since then but nothing suffices enough to say what I feel about you.

~~ रास्ते बिखर जाते हैं रास्तों में 

खो गए हैं हम तेरे दिल की राह नहीं मिलती ~~

I've thought a lot about confessing this to you, like a many times but I am scared of not ending up with you, I am scared that you would go someday leaving me alone here in this city. I have started loving surprises as long as you are the one who has planned it. I have also started planning . On this new years I've planned of giving you back this diary, to let you get acquainted with what I'v dreamt about us. Its a beautiful dream and I don't want to get up. I am scared of what you said about our names the other day, I am scared that  we don't belong together. 

Leher

With the strike of 12 o clock when the whole world stepped out into the new year she pulled her blanket over her face and with another letter under her pillow she went to sleep to come out of the dream.

Dear Leher

I will never be able to express in words what these three months have given to me , so many good friends , a wonderful experience of living and loving this city and of course  the memories  that you gave me. I know you love writing and that is why I am giving you this last message in written. Since my project has completed I'll be leaving  for London on 31st December. I know you had plans for the new year but I am really sorry I have to leave on that very day. Stay as charming as you are and have a great year ahead.

Amber

~~ हम बयान कर देते हाल-ऐ-दिल तुम्हे 

इस नज़र को एक नज़र तुम मिल तो जाते ~~

वही पुराना स्विच बोर्ड

पहले दिन जब हम ट्रेनिंग के लिए दूरदर्शन भवन पहुचे तो सरकारी कार्यालय के सोते हुए सिस्टम ने हमारा स्वागत किया और पूरा एक घंटा सेमिनार हॉल में व्यर्थ बैठने के बाद हमे ज्ञात हुआ कि हमारी सारी उत्साहिकता पे बड़े ही प्यार से पानी नहीं चाय फेर दिया गया था | इतने लम्बे इंतज़ार के बाद कहीं जाकर एक महोदय आये और उन्होंने आधे घंटे का लेक्चर दिया जिसका एक अक्षर भी हमारे पल्ले न पड़ा क्यूँकि उन्हें ये भी नहीं पता था की सामने बैठा बैच कौन सा है |खैर लंच ब्रेक हुआ तो हमने कैंटीन की तरफ रुख किया | बाहर से एक मामूली सी कैंटीन दिखने वाला उस भवन का वो कोना बाद में हमारा ट्रेनिंग पे आने का soul reason बन जायेगा ये तो हमे पता ही नहीं था, भीतर जाकर जब हमारी नज़र रेट लिस्ट पे पड़ी तो हमारी आँखें खुली की खुली रह गयी, मात्र दस रुपये में लजीज आलू के परांठे, सात रुपये में CCD की कॉफ़ी, २० रुपये में मसाला डोसा इत्यादि | एक बार फिर हम हर्षोल्लास से भर गए | कम पैसों में भर पेट खाना खा कर इतनी ख़ुशी हुई तो हमे लगा ज़रा अपने दोस्तों को भी इस बात से अवगत किया जाए. धडाधड़  whatsapp का प्रयोग किया गया. रेट लिस्ट की फोटो भेज कर हम ऐसे प्रसंचित्त थे जैसे हमारी वहां नौकरी लग गयी हो. फिर तो हर निर्धारित दिन पर कार्यालय जाकर पहले जितना ज्ञान समेट पाते समेटते और फिर पहुच जाते थे कैंटीन| एक दिन हमे पता चला कि भवन के दूसरे तल पर भी एक mini canteen है.हम ऐसे कैसे किसी भी खजाने को हाथ जाने देते तो अगले ही दिन हम वहां भी पहुच गए | पता चला की यहाँ तो ज्यादा अच्छी कॉफ़ी मिलती है, फिर हमारा अड्डा ज़रा शिफ्ट हो गया | उस मिनी कैंटीन में काम करने वाले भैया काफी मिलनसार हैं| एक रोज़ यूँ ही वो हमे कुछ रेगुलर कस्टमर के बारे में बताने लगे, हम भी बातूनी कम कहाँ हैं हमने उनकी बातों में रूचि ली तो वो और खुल कर बातें करने लगे और बातों बातों में हमने पूछा कि आप यहाँ कब से काम कर रहे हो ? 

" पांच साल हो गए हैं .जब मैंने यहाँ काम शुरू किया था तो आधे से ज्यादा कमरे और फ्लोर खाली थे तब DD NEWS नहीं था इनके पास. फिर धीरे धीरे सरकार ने और पैसा लगाया और लोग बढ़ते गए. हर फ्लोर के हर कमरे में रूम डिलीवरी करता हूँ. यहाँ कोई ऐसा नहीं होगा जो मुझे ना जानता हो | दिन भर में हर कमरे में चक्कर लग जाते हैं| अब तो इन के साथ काम करके इनके जैसा ही हो गया हूँ| जब नया नया आया था तो बहुत परेशान हुआ था, लगता था इनके पास पर power है इसलिए डरता था पर अब पता चल गया है कोई power नहीं है इनके पास| अब अपनी मर्ज़ी से काम करता हूँ| एक साहब ने आधे घंटे पहले कॉफ़ी मंगायी थी अब तक नहीं ले गया, बैठे होंगे वो इंतज़ार में."

ये बोल कर वो बड़ी ही बेबाकी से हँस दिया |

हम हैरान थे हमने कहा आप जाकर उन्हें कॉफ़ी दे आइये वरना...

हम अपनी बात पूरी भी नहीं कर पाए थे कि वो बोल उठा " वो मेरे काम में गोली देते हैं तो मैं उनके काम में गोली दूंगा. इनके हाथ में कुछ नहीं है, एक स्विच तो लगवा नहीं सकते ये | कितना बोला मैंने कि coffeemaker के लिए एक प्लग चाहिए पर सब को सिर्फ दुसरे पे काम टालना आता है. हर बड़े अफसर के अचानक से हाथ बंध जाते हैं और खुद को सबसे powerful कहने वाले अफसर को अचानक से ऊपर बैठे आला अफसरों की याद आ जाती है. मुझे कोई डर नहीं है इनका."

जिस तरह वो उन सारे बड़े अफसरों को "इनके" कह कर एक पल खुद से छोटा सिद्ध कर दे रहा था वो हमारे लिए आश्चर्यजनक था. कुछ देर पहले जो आदमी हमे रोज़ आने जाने वाले बच्चो के मजेदार किस्से सुना रहा था वो अब हमे अपनी आखों से देश का सिस्टम दिखा रहा था. 

एक बार जो उसने बोलना शुरू किया तो लगा जैसे सालों से एकत्रित किया सारा गुबार वो आज निकल कर ही मानेगा | फिर तो उसने कई ऐसे कच्चे चिट्ठे खोले | उसने हमे बताया कि कुछ साल पहले vacancy के नाम पे दो पोस्ट निकाले गए थे जिसके लिए डेढ़ लाख से भी ज्यादा फॉर्म आये थे पर उन बेचारे डेढ़ लाख भारतियों को कहाँ पता था कि उनके फॉर्म महज समोसे खाने के काम आये थे क्यूँकि जो दो vacancy निकली थी उनके वारिस तो पहले ही रोजाना उसी भवन में पार्टी कर रहे थे |

"मैंने तो फॉर्म भरने के बारे में सोचा भी नहीं क्यूँकि मुझे पता था कि कंप्यूटर पे जिस तेज़ी से "number of applications " बढ़ रही हैं उतने ही ज्यादा इन अफसरों की शाम कि पार्टी का इंतज़ाम हो रहा है. मैं ही तो कॉफ़ी, चाय , सूप बना कर ले जाता था | मैं यहीं सही हूँ कम से कम सबको इमानदार coffee पिला कर ख़ुशी तो मिलती है ! इनके बीच इनके जैसा काम मुझसे ना हो पायेगा| "

इन सब हकीकतों से हम वाकिफ तो पहले भी थे पर इस तरह से कभी किसी को बोलते हुए नहीं देखा था | एक आम कॉफ़ी बनाने वाला हमे हमारे ही हाल से रूबरू करा रहा था. हमे कुछ बोलने कि ना तो ज़रुरत पड़ रही थी न ही वो हमे मौका दे रहा था. 

" फॉर्म तो मैंने भरा भी नहीं , भर भी देता तो कुछ ना होना था और वैसे भी हाई स्कूल फेल इंसान को कौन नौकरी देगा | पढाई तो मैंने तब छोड़ दी थी जब मेरे TC पे उन्होंने लिख दिया था 'फीस न जमा करने के कारण नाम काटा गया '| "

वो कुछ देर के लिए शांत हो गया |

हमे लगा शायद उसे इस बात का पछतावा है या शायद गम है कि गरीबी के कारण फीस न जमा कर पाया और पढाई अधूरी रह गयी|हम अपने मन में कुछ राय बना ही रहे थे कि वो दुबारा बोल पड़ा..

" अरेफीस ना पूरी दी होती तो क्या बोर्ड से मेरा परीक्षा पत्र आ जाता | वो तो तभी मिलता है जब कोई फीस बकाया ना हो. मैंने कहा उनसे कि मेरी फीस पूरी जमा है पर किसी ने मेरी एक ना सुनी. प्रधानाचार्य तक के पास गया कि सर ऐसा क्यूँ कर रहे हो पर उनके पास भी कोई जवाब नहीं था." 

उसकी आवाज में झल्लाहट साफ़ झलक रही थी, गुस्सा था पर पछतावा नहीं | 

" नवी क्लास में इतना होशियार था मैं पढने में very good था, हिंदी इतनी अच्छी थी कि सब तारीफ करते थे पर पता नहीं किस बात का बदला ले रहे थे| बस तभी मैंने पढाई छोड़ दी. कसम खा ली कि अब कभी नहीं पढूंगा"

हमसे रहा न गया और हमने बोला " पर भैया इससे नुक्सान तो आपका ही हुआ न जिसने ऐसा किया उससे तो कोई फर्क भी नहीं पड़ा. पढाई कितनी ज़रूरी है..."

और एक बार फिर उसने हमारी बात काट दी " उस TC को लेकर मैं जिस भी जगह जाता सबको यह लगता या तो ये कोई गुंडा बदमाश है जिसे स्कूल से निकाल दिया गया या फिर इतना गरीब है कि फीस नहीं दे पाया तो कॉलेज की फीस क्या भरेगा" विद्या का महत्व पता है मुझे, पर विद्या ने जब मुझे धोखा दे दिया तो अब मुझे दुबारा कोशिश नहीं करनी | यहीं ठीक हूँ मैं. यही हाल है UP का | आज भी वो कागज का टुकड़ा है मेरे पास जिसपे लिखा है ' फीस न जमा करने की वजह से नाम काटा गया ' , खून खौल उठता है उसे देख कर "

उसकी आवाज में दर्द था, आँखों में गुस्सा पर होंठों पे एक बेबाक सी मुस्कान |   

हम अब हर तरह से निरुत्तर हो चुके थे | गुनेहगार कौन था ये तो ना उसे पता था ना हमे, कोई "वो" था जिसने एक आम आदमी के भविष्य के साथ घिनोना मज़ाक किया था | उसने कोई जवाब नहीं माँगा था पर हम सवालों से घिर गए थे, उसकी बातों ने हमारे मन में इतने प्रश्न चिन्ह बना दिए थे कि हमसे कुछ बोला ही नहीं जा रहा था | तभी वहां कुछ कस्टमर्स आ गए और वो आदमी जिसने अभी अभी हमे अन्दर तक झकझोर दिया था, अपनी कुर्सी से उठा और आर्डर के अनुसार लेमन टी बनाने लगा. वही पुराने से स्विच बोर्ड का बटन ऑन करके वो अपनी ज़िन्दगी में वापस चला गया और हम बस "कल फिर आएंगे" कह कर वहां से चले गए.

~~ हमने ज़िन्दगी से न कीमती खजाने मांगे थे

ना बेवजह खुशियों के बहाने मांगे थे

रात हो तो चैन की नींद आ जाये जहाँ 

ले दे कर कुछ ऐसे ठिकाने मांगे थे  ~~

Some of my favorite "lyrics hindi songs"- Part 1

As I have already mentioned I am in love with words and the art of using them. Bollywood songs with good lyrics have always been a treat to my ears. Today I am just posting up a few of those songs that are in my playlist because of the awesome lyrics they have. I must mention that they not the top twenty of my list but only a twenty of my cherished ones. Actually I do not have any such list, I just cannot put one on the top and others below it. Its like choosing the best Dairy Milk Silk from a bundle of  Dairy Milk Silks. They all take me to same lane where I am surrounded by words dancing singing all together to create a beautiful world for me. Of course the songs have a variety of moods and genre, even dairy milk silks come in flavors now but then all of them are relished in the same way. I am also posting the youtube links to the songs . Enjoy !!
Here we go:

• Phir Le Aaya Dil - Barfi  

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OHqJRf94xrc

This song is a magic in itself, be it the female version by Rekha Bhardwaj or the male version by Arijit Singh. The mood of the song, the sufi style and of course the "urdu words" leave you muttering the song for the whole day. I can listen to it many number of times and not get bored....."kya keeje" :)

दिल कह रहा है उसे मय्यसर कर भी आओ

वो जो दबी सी आस बाकी है !!

• Tum Ho - Rockstar   

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2iUZRSeqzz8

Mohit chauhan always does it for me. I so get carried away in the depth of his voice and the music is like "sone pe suhaaga". This romantic track is a legendary piece of work by Irshaad Kaamil and A R Rehman sir :D

किस तरह छीनेगा मुझसे ये जहाँ तुम्हे

तुम भी हो मैं क्या फिकर अब हमे 

तुम हो पास मेरे साथ मेरे हो तुम यूँ 

जितना महसूस करूँ तुमको उतना ही पा भी लू 

• Abhi Mujh me Kahin - Agneepath  

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cNV2A6YzhxI

For those who haven't seen the movie understanding why I like the lines of this song would be a little difficult. The lines in this song are so appropriate for the movie that it leaves me astonished that how could someone write so beautifully and exactly what was needed. The pain of separation of a brother and the confused happy state of mind when he gets his sister back after a long time is so very well rooted in the song. Hrithik does  brilliant job bringing life to the song by his acting.

डोर से छूटी पतंग जैसी थी ये जिंदगानी मेरी

आज है कल हो मेरा न हो हर पल थी कहानी मेरी

एक बंधन नया पीछे से अब मुझको बुलाये

आने वाले पल की क्यूँ फिकर मुझको सता जाए

कुछ ऐसी चुभन  इस लम्हे में है 

ये लम्हा कहाँ था मेरा !!

If anyone who hasn't seen the movie and wants to understand the lines please comment below I shall be very elated explaining them to you.

• Yeh Dooriyaan - Love aaj Kal 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=47cojMqFxxY

Mohit Chauhan again !! The starting music of the song is wonderful. There is something different about it that I fell in love with. These lines in particular, just like the movie are so aberrantly refreshing.

कभी हुआ ये भी खाली राहों पे भी तू था मेरे साथ 

कभी तुझे मिल के लौटा मेरा दिल ये खाली खाली हाथ

ये भी हुआ कभी जैसे हुआ अभी तुझको सभी में पा लिया

Apart from the rest of song which is equally awesome, the use of justifying words and the underlying meaning , these lines are really close to my heart and hence makes the song one of my 'LyricsFavouriteSong'.

• Arziyaan - Delhi 6  

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xug3oU072KA

Songs like these always serve the right thing before me. The exact ingredients of my taste, the sufi touch, the A R Rehman music and the aura that is created. I feel close to God when I listen to such songs. Sometimes some one creates exactly the thing the you need and hence this song was forged.  

" दरारें दरारें हैं माथे पे मौला.....मरम्मत मुक्कदर की कर दो मौला "

The lines that follow now are a part of the song that I love the most. I would request everyone who hasn't come across this song to please listen to it. You'll feel heavenly. 

सर उठा के तो मैंने कितनी ख्वाहिशें की थी

कितने ख्वाब देखे थे कितनी कोशिशें की थी

जब तू रूबरू आया नज़रें ना मिला पाया 

सर झुका के एक पल मैं मैंने क्या नहीं पाया 

• Kabeera - Yeh jawani hai deewani :  

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m7poxLIFrVk

This track was a best thing about this movie. It is set around a person who lives only for himself without caring about the world and ends up being alone. Beautifully sung by Rekha bharadwaj, this song is a pure game of lyrics and hence I found it interesting when I listened to it for the first time.

कैसी तेरी खुदगर्जी लब नमक लगे न मिसरी

कैसे तेरी खुदगर्जी तुझे प्रीत पुरानी बिसरी 

मस्त मौला मस्त कलंदर तू हवा का एक बवंडर 

बुझ के यु अन्दर ही अन्दर क्यों  रह गया !

The use of "parchayiyaan" in this song is like a gem to it. Parchayiyaan or The Shadow of a person speaks the truth about him and the actual area where he belongs, however hard he may try to run behind things in life, one day he has to give in to his shadow.

" आजा तुझको पुकारे तेरी परछाईया "

So I guess this much would do for today. I'll soon post more of my favorite songs in coming post. Till then enjoy these. Do comment ! I'd love to hear from you people about these songs and your favorite ones.

Dear God I believe in you !

Dear God,
I remember fighting with a 25 year old when I was 12 because he did not believe in you. I could not believe that there exists a person who doesn't believe in you. I mean you have been my best friend always and you've listened to me when I could not say it to anyone else. As and when I grew up my problems shifted from the girl in class who had a better pencil box than me to the girl in office who got a promotion before me because she belonged to a renowned wealthy family. I remember how happy I was when that girl lost her pencil box the very next day but nothing has happened to this girl in office. You are beyond the limits of my understanding.
We, humans are never happy because we want more and more from you.Though I totally believe in ''whatever you do is for a cause'' theory but sometimes the cause and effect relationship is a little difficult for a stupid girl like me to understand. Please don't complicate things this much. I tend to misjudge your decision, I may also start questioning your existence.
At every stage of life I have been unsatisfied. When I was a kid I always wanted to grow up quickly because I thought elders enjoy a better and independent life but now that I'v grown up I've realized crying over a broken toy or a lost pencil was any time better than crying over a broken trust or a lost relationship. The punishments of being banned from going out to play or doing extra 20 questions in maths were far more easier than being ditched or dumped or left alone in a room with no one to talk but yourself.
Anyways, sometimes I feel the more I trust you, the more you test me. Don't you know I hate tests, I am afraid of under performance, what scares me is the thought of being left out. But no doubt I still trust you because right from when I was a child, the solution of my every itty-bitty problem came by standing in front of you with folded hands and closed eyes and praying "Please Bhagvaan Ji help me". Though sometimes you did disappoint me but the faith in you is one thing that never sets down for me.
You created me and then you created people better than me and quite often I find myself in the blind race of trying to become better and perfect. You gave me a mind but then you gave me a heart which was supposed to be a part of the circulatory system of my body but at times it overtakes every system of my body and screw things up. I don't understand why can't it mind its own business.
Still for most of the times I am optimistic because I believe that since I am your kid it is your responsibility to guide me through everything and help me stay happy. Sooner or later you'v always yielded answers to my problems and you will be glad to know that I've even discovered the reason for the delay that happens sometimes - There are millions and billions of people wanting to communicate with you all the time, it must be difficult for you to attend to so many prayers at the same time. Hence, I can blame all my unheeded troubles, confusing situations, unanswered prayers, unexpected failures, unending tribulations to the population explosion and go to sleep.

Yours lovingly,
one of your creations 

Image credits : https://www.facebook.com/puneet.vivid

Living in a world where you don't know who to trust !

Its not love we've lost faith in, its people that we are unable to trust ! In today's world the biggest risk lies in taking chance with a person, to let them have a part of us and believe that they'll take care of it ; But imagine walking to their door one day and finding that part lying among the refuse of the last day household garbage, it will be soon thrown away ! You regret the trust ! Remember the last evening when you stepped out of that door, exulted and full of joy, you thought every particle of the universe is doing its bit to keep up your smile and see today everything got reduced to the garbage pile! You pick it up...what do you do now?

What most of the times we do is we knocking up at that door once more, stepping in again hoping that the second chance may work ! We talk over it and soon we make up our mind to hand over the part again, fingers crossed ! Little do we realize that life isn't a fairy tale or a Bollywood movie !

Most of the torments in our life can be blamed upon the fact that we are hopelessly hopeful at times, hope is such a mysterious thing., it makes us do things that we know wont work up ; Everything doesn't deserve a second chance but the tough part is knowing what those things are ! Sometimes you have to give up on people not because you don't care but because they don't ! What takes to put an end is a thing as tiny as a full-stop ! After all the punctuations that have been tried here you go.

~~ खता तेरी समझा के तुझको खता हमने बार बार की
लम्हों की सिलवटों में चुप छुपा कर ख्वाहिशें हज़ार की
कल तक तो दुनिया के शोर में भी आवाज तुम्हारी थी यहीं 
और आज हवा की सरसराहट में ही पुकार हमारी खो गयी 
हाथ पकड़ कर वापस खींच लेते आज एक बार फिर से
पर उस साथ से बेहतर अब हमे तन्हाईयाँ स्वीकार थी~~