Questions and more questions !

Life seems to be a question every now and then. There is a question mark at end of each road. We have traveled this journey with a big baggage of questions and for the most of times we have looked around everywhere in search of the answers, everywhere possible and every time possible. We kept looking for transparency for a major part of our life because we thought life would get a little easier and shinier but on occasions we learned that ignorance was better than the truth. Every why and how may not necessarily give us what we are looking for so once in a while we all have avoided knowing the truth. 

There are questions with answers that confuse us, other that provide lucidity. We run behind some questions while there are other questions that we run away from, we do not want them answered because we know that the answers will haunt us more than the questions. When we thought knowing the answer will set us free, help reduce the entropy of our system it turned out that it was more than we could bear.

We have been sick of this sickness and we have tried to lessen the dilemma those questions have been causing us but maybe when we find out what really was going on, we may never recover. So the question mark remains. It remains there and asks us “Do you really want to know the answer”.

Reality is chasing. How far can you run away?

When was the last time you felt an absolute need of an escape, a run-away from everything that is troubling you, everything that is pulling you out of your comfort zone and dragging you onto the path of inconvenience. We all have our own way of escapism because very often we find out that the reality is harsh and we are not in a mood to fight. As humans, we are supposed to be strong and believe in ourselves, to take the leap of faith every now and then but sometimes turning our backs to the problems and running away seems a better option. To accept the situations is hard and to sneak away seems soothing.
Deep down we are all afraid and we all have fears, fear of rejection, fear of failure, fear of losing ,fear of getting lost and above all fear of a change and we try hard to avoid confronting our fears, so we hide behind our fantasies and pretend that the state we are in is the state we want to be in.
The world believes in the Newton's law of inertia that a body in rest continues to be in rest till some external force forces it to run away from that force. We all do it. Every day. Its science and we cannot deny it. So we try to keep ourselves in that state of rest and we develop methods to do that. Our own escapes.

But life is not just science it also is history and geography. It knows the secret pathways of our bitter histories and it has the power of changing everything around us in a moment. Just when we've started feeling sure of our self and the defenses we've chosen, the weather outside changes. So when it is too cold outside, the best we can do sometimes is to just wrap up ourself in a blanket and wait for the springs to find its way.

Plan some plans !

We make plans. Most of them just turn out to be things written in ink on tiny bits of papers kept and forgotten in some old books while the other lucky ones are those that are executed. Making plans is easy, making good plans is difficult and making plans that will actually work is arduous. Still we make plans because that is how we do the least we can do to decide what our tomorrow would be like. We plan because random ramblings do not necessary may take us to our destination, we have to map a way to land up there and most importantly we plan because planning is free of cost. We take utmost care in making those plans because they are supposed to give us what we want but sadly destiny batters our plans. This does not happen because our plan was wrong but because some times what we want is not what we need. The funny thing about destiny is that it does not take in account our plans. It’s painful how our plans slip out of our fists however hard we try to hold them. They fail.

Life is what happens while we were busy making other plans. Life moves on and drags us along with it. However badly we try to stick to a today, it becomes a yesterday in less than twenty four hours. Sooner or later what we got to do is turn our back to the failures and make another plan to be happy. And hey, why worry when you can always switch to plan B.

We are all trapped in a Bubble !

Human mind is the most capricious thing. It thinks but decides as per the brooding of surroundings. Many times we've not let ourselves be what we actually want to be. There are hundreds of things that we think before doing something and this is when we start taking steps away from what was actually desired.

Our desires are pleasant to our soul but we act to please the world! Don’t you feel that you've always restricted your mind to fly...fly away to a world of unknown happiness. We are all trapped in a bubble of 'WHAT IFs' and 'MAYBEs' and the minute droplets of all the questions and their probable answers keep us from the air of blessedness around. Aren't we blessed enough with a mind that can take decisions for us? But why does all we decide involve the contemplation of people around. For once try to prick the bubble and do something that you've always wanted not what the people have made you do and then the “I” in you will be at peace! And now let me leave you with a lines by Kishor Kumar Ji.

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~~ कुछ‌ रीत जग की ऐसी है... हर सुबह की यहा शाम हुई
तू कौन है तॆरा क्या नाम है…. सीता भी यहा बदनाम‌ हुई
फिर क्यू सन्सार की बातॊ सॆ.. भीग गयॆ तॆरॆ नैना
कुछ तॊ लॊग कहॆगॆ लॊगॊ का काम है कॆह्ना ~~

Curtained !!

You say that girl speaks a lot..
maybe you could never see the thousands of unspoken feelings hidden in her eyes !
You wonder why does she laugh so much..
maybe you missed out on listening to the cries of pain that are still inside her !!
You see her mingling with everyone..
but you never saw how alone she feels at times,so deprived of someone who'll never let her go !!
You think how easy going her life is..
you've never faced the hardships she has to bear now and then !!
You question her versatility..
but you cannot answer the questions boggling her mind all the time !!
She fell down many times expecting a hand that would help her stand up again..
and she has carried the burden of unfulfilled expectations !!!
She has been hurt .. she has cried a lot..
but you'll never actually understand because she has learned how to curtain it from the world.

~~ काश कि उसकी आँखों में छुपा दर्द  तुम पढ़ पाते
वो बता कर भी क्या करे तुम सुनते तो हो पर सुन पाते ~~ 

just another post !!

TV series- How I met your Mother- Season 4 Episode 22 :

Future Ted- The great moments of your life wont necessarily be the things you do,

they'll also be things that happen to you.
I'm not saying you can't take action to affect the outcome of your life
You have to take action and you will...
but never forget that on any day, you could step out of the front door and your whole life can change forever.
The universe has a plan and that plan is always in motion.
A butterfly flaps its wing and it starts to rain.
Its a scary thought but it's also kind of wonderful.
All these little parts of the machine constantly working making sure that you end up exactly where you're supposed to be, exactly when you are supposed to be there.

The right place at the right time !!

Its a beautiful thought that himym gave me.We curse the moment when we do not land up where we wanted to go, maybe a movie that we could not catch up because of the last ticket that got sold off or a journey we could not travel on the projected day because we missed the train but you should know that everything that is happening has already been planned somewhere, all in our benefits. We tend to take time to realize this but then relax your life is being painted shades by shades by the best painter.
Maybe that movie was not worth spending that amount and that journey would not have taken us to the destination where we could find what we were looking for. There is a certain darkness needed to see the stars and this darkness should not be cursed.
Destiny plays a role in what we become but not as much as what we decide and do. One day we are what we want to be and other day what we had to be, but in both cases we have to play our part carefully because in the end we wont remember if it was destiny or action. It would be just what we have become and nothing else would matter.