Sunday, 7 July 2013

That girl in the mirror !

Just a few minutes were left. Any moment she would be called downstairs. For the first time after quite a long period she looked into the mirror and was startled at what she saw. She took a step away, she could not find herself, there was a girl dressed up in a color she didn't like, she looked at it, that girl in the mirror, her empty eyes were outlined with a lot of kohl, a plenty of strained lines on her forehead were ruling out the beautiful hairstyle that was made, the makeup that had been put on so well failed to hide the scars of past from her face.

There was a picture of her from the college days on the side table, a complete contrast to that ill looking girl in the mirror. She was a girl full of life just like any other girl of her age. Shopping, outings and parties with friends were her life. Born and brought up in a well off family and being the only girl, she never had seen any misery of life. All before that one night when the world around her changed. She was looking very pretty that night. A guy in the party asked her to dance with him. She looked with disgust at the shabbily dressed and drunk man and refused. Soon it was getting late and she left for home. 
It was raining heavily and she was driving her way back to home. She thought that she should call her mother and inform that she is fine and may get late due to the heavy rain. "My mom worries a lot. She wouldn't even eat till I come back home" she thought to herself, blaring the horn of car at a stupid car driver who had stopped abruptly in front of her car when she slowed down to make the call. Suddenly a person with a black umbrella knocked on her car window.She was scared and did not open her window. Instead she started moving the car in back direction only to realize that her way had been blocked by another car from behind.
Terrified by the happenings she searched for her cell to call her dad but suddenly there was a huge crash on her windshield, a few glass pieces pricked into her eyes and face and before she could realize anything more there were a few hands running all over her body. She could have cried out for help but something was choking her throat. She tried to get hold of herself and run out of her car but every attempt she made proved futile. She started crying but they were just tears. Her voice seemed to have refused to come out. With all the little left over energy she again tried to push them away but those animals were much stronger and she gave up. Her eyes had started shutting, she thought her end was near and was waiting for it but she was wrong. Those monsters did even worse.They left her alive.

Today after six years from that incidence she looked into the mirror to see a girl she did not recognize. She realized that those thirty minutes were not the most shady minutes of her life.That night was not the darkest night of her life. It had darkened every coming day of her life. Dark and darker each day.The darling daughter had become a sorrow for parents. Her eyes had looked into many eyes, some had sympathy,some had anger, some were filled with disgust for those criminals and some had hatred for the girl, there was pain, there was agony but what she did not could find anywhere was "Love".
She looked down from the balcony. A man in his late forties, dressed up well was being welcomed into her house. There were a few other people along with him. There was a knock on the door, she heard her mother calling her name. She turned away from the picture on the table and walked towards to the door.

Tuesday, 2 July 2013

We are all trapped in a Bubble !

Human mind is the most capricious thing. It thinks but decides as per the brooding of surroundings. Many times we've not let ourselves be what we actually want to be. There are hundreds of things that we think before doing something and this is when we start taking steps away from what was actually desired.
Our desires are pleasant to our soul but we act to please the world! Don’t you feel that you've always restricted your mind to fly...fly away to a world of unknown happiness. We are all trapped in a bubble of 'WHAT IFs' and 'MAYBEs' and the minute droplets of all the questions and their probable answers keep us from the air of blessedness around. Aren't we blessed enough with a mind that can take decisions for us? But why does all we decide involve the contemplation of people around. For once try to prick the bubble and do something that you've always wanted not what the people have made you do and then the “I” in you will be at peace! And now let me leave you with a lines by Kishor Kumar Ji.
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~~ कुछ‌ रीत जग की ऐसी है... हर सुबह की यहा शाम हुई
तू कौन है तॆरा क्या नाम है…. सीता भी यहा बदनाम‌ हुई
फिर क्यू सन्सार की बातॊ सॆ.. भीग गयॆ तॆरॆ नैना
कुछ तॊ लॊग कहॆगॆ लॊगॊ का काम है कॆह्ना ~~

Tuesday, 18 June 2013

Curtained !!

You say that girl speaks a lot..
maybe you could never see the thousands of unspoken feelings hidden in her eyes !
You wonder why does she laugh so much..
maybe you missed out on listening to the cries of pain that are still inside her !!
You see her mingling with everyone..
but you never saw how alone she feels at times,so deprived of someone who'll never let her go !!
You think how easy going her life is..
you've never faced the hardships she has to bear now and then !!
You question her versatility..
but you cannot answer the questions boggling her mind all the time !!
She fell down many times expecting a hand that would help her stand up again..
and she has carried the burden of unfulfilled expectations !!!
She has been hurt .. she has cried a lot..
but you'll never actually understand because she has learned how to curtain it from the world.

~~ काश कि उसकी आँखों में छुपा दर्द  तुम पढ़ पाते
वो बता कर भी क्या करे तुम सुनते तो हो पर सुन पाते ~~ 

Wednesday, 12 June 2013

Say sorry to your heart !!

Its time you should realize that things that are not fitting into your fist are bound to be abdicated now. Its foolish to bruise your fingers by clinging on to its hold. Let go. Your hands were meant to help you realize your dreams, those dreams that are there, sulking beneath your pillow every night. Look out for them, see if they still are trying to breathe. Give them some air. Examine the pain you've caused to yourself, i know someone has pricked you up a lot but if they are not sorry to you be sorry to yourself. Say sorry to your heart, see the innumerable pains you've given to the little pumping machine inside your body.
Its alright if you wish to cry now. The body has its mechanism of flushing out the waste when it starts causing trouble to your living. If you hate them, they still exist. Cry once and wipe them off. They don't deserve anymore of it. At the end of the day you have to sleep back on that very pillow and wait for the new morning to come.

~~ हर सवेरे को मालूम नहीं होती अपने होने की वजह
पर हर रोज़ की बेवजह अँधेरे पर फ़तेह कर लेता है ~~

Monday, 10 June 2013

just another post !!

TV series- How I met your Mother- Season 4 Episode 22 :

Future Ted- The great moments of your life wont necessarily be the things you do,
they'll also be things that happen to you.
I'm not saying you can't take action to affect the outcome of your life
You have to take action and you will...
but never forget that on any day, you could step out of the front door and your whole life can change forever.
The universe has a plan and that plan is always in motion.
A butterfly flaps its wing and it starts to rain.
Its a scary thought but it's also kind of wonderful.
All these little parts of the machine constantly working making sure that you end up exactly where you're supposed to be, exactly when you are supposed to be there.

The right place at the right time !!

Its a beautiful thought that himym gave me.We curse the moment when we do not land up where we wanted to go, maybe a movie that we could not catch up because of the last ticket that got sold off or a journey we could not travel on the projected day because we missed the train but you should know that everything that is happening has already been planned somewhere, all in our benefits. We tend to take time to realize this but then relax your life is being painted shades by shades by the best painter.
Maybe that movie was not worth spending that amount and that journey would not have taken us to the destination where we could find what we were looking for. There is a certain darkness needed to see the stars and this darkness should not be cursed.
Destiny plays a role in what we become but not as much as what we decide and do. One day we are what we want to be and other day what we had to be, but in both cases we have to play our part carefully because in the end we wont remember if it was destiny or action. It would be just what we have become and nothing else would matter.

Sunday, 19 May 2013

A PARADISE...


Last night I was in a paradise

A little paradise where the tender plants of friendship were strong enough to withstand any wind of adversity
Where there were little hands working together to form a sand castle of their dreams but there was no harsh sea to destroy it.
Where small gestures of love could cure all the diseased relations
Where I never had to hurt my fingers collecting the broken pieces of trust I once had on someone
Where my actions proved to be an everlasting source of happiness
Where I never had to witness my beloved people walking away leaving my hand
Where I never had to wipe my tears to see two people who were walking with each other, move apart
My paradise had no place for harsh words, broken dreams and shattered feelings
Where every relation was at its best, brimming with happiness and no complaint box
Where there was an undo button to correct every mistake
Where every morning was a new start and every night was a peaceful reward for accomplished tasks of the day
This paradise which was far from the harsh world of reality we live in
That my paradise of dreams, a place I wish to go again and never to return back
I had a dream last night which was a happiness heap
I had a dream last night that I always wish to keep.

Saturday, 18 May 2013

What went wrong is still unanswered !!


Is it the people that talk rubbish
or you who believed those rubbish talks.
Is it the priorities that have increased
or you who made something else more important
Is it the schedule that do not match
or the time that you don't spend together now
Has the mind got new things to think
or the heart does not care anymore
Is it the harsh words that were uttered
or the sweet feelings that are still unexpressed
What went wrong is still unanswered.